Alright ladies. I want a baby. My sister in law just gave birth a few days ago to my sweet nephew. I am serious when I say, I am so so happy for them! BUT! I lost my baby September 26th at about 9 weeks pregnant..after that happened I went into a dark place for a few months. After realizing I need to get it together and be a mom to my son, I got up dusted off and carried on. I was doing so well with “taking time” to try again. (Not gonna lie. It was a little difficult to be around a very pregnant woman during that time but I managed because that’s what family does) anyway, once my little nephew popped out into the world, all I can think about is having another baby! I’m scared to start the process in fear of going through a traumatic loss. But damn I want to have a baby! This is seriously the worse battle to fight with yourself!! I don’t know what to do. Thanks for letting me vent. Didn’t feel a lot better to post to millions of people who don’t really care either way. But it feels good to get it out because I can’t talk to anyone else about it!