That I don’t want to spend literally every weekend or every other day around my SO’s family? It’s not like I’m telling him not to go, I just don’t want to. I can’t stand being around people not just them, I just hate being in an “uncomfortable environment” I guess you could say. I’d rather be comfortable and they don’t even want to necessarily be around me lmao. They gossip about me when I’m not around 🤷🏽‍♀️ I don’t do the fake stuff. One of the reasons I’m not comfortable is bc they have “black friends.” I say it like that because that’s one of the first things they said to me when we first met...”I have a black friend!”

I went off track 🙄 i guess my SO grew up wanting to be around them 24/7 his dad/mom literally call 25 times a day!! What do I say without sounding like I hate his family? It’s honestly taking over my life, I feel like I never get time with him because he’s always talking or around his family. Im not being jealous truly, I wish y’all knew what I was going through. We just went through something with his mom wanting to kill time all day at our house until 11pm because my SIL is at work and she don’t want to be alone and always asking for money and cigarettes and food. So I don’t want it to seem like I’m doing too much. But I can literally sit here for hours and not say anything and he won’t hardly notice cause he’s constantly talking/around/or wanting to go to their houses. He is a good man he just loves his family so much and very extrovert! I was wondering if I should post this anonymously lmao because everybody judges but many of y’all don’t even know me. I just want y’all thoughts even if you’re on the other side of this and like my SO! He pays attention to me but lately it’s been more and more of this. We just recently went through a chemical pregnancy and I might just be being emotional because of that?