Im sitting here wishing, praying, begging, crying to God to bless my husband and I with a child. Every TWW is like an eternity, always resulting in a BFN.

Some days it is a struggle for me to get out of bed after a negative result, let alone maintain my faith. How could God give me a desire to be a mother so deep I feel it to my core and then deny me a child? I asked myself this question a few times I'm ashamed to say.

As the months go by I get more worried it will never happen. How much longer do we have to wait? Will I ever get to see that positive test? Will my husband and I ever get to start our family?