This happens every cycle now. We have safe sex but a pregnancy would be devastating. My cycles are getting longer and longer (up to 44 days last cycle) and I know I’m not pregnant but I still panic every time I try to sleep when I’m late. And I’m pretty sure I just ovulated like 5 days ago which means at least 9 more days of panicked sleeping.

I just want to sleep.

Every time I close my eyes my heart starts beating fast and I think about how we never should’ve started doing this at all. Then I eventually start falling asleep and dreaming scenarios that aren’t even real, fooling myself to make me think I’m pregnant.

Can someone please give me advice on how I can fall asleep? It’s 2:41 am right now..