Last cycle before fertility treatment

Hi ladies, I'm hoping you can give me strength and guidance. This was our last cycle going it alone before starting <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> next month. I'm 12dpo today ( the same day I got BFPs with both my angel babies) and absolutely nothing. I've gotta say, think today is my lowest day in the last 2 years I've been TTC. I'm hoping to go into this next chapter with courage and belief it will work but today, I'm lower than ever. Finding it hard to talk to anyone in my 'real life' because I feel they just don't get it, which makes me feel very alone. I'm 34 in May and worried time is running out!