Hi all,

Me and my bf have only recently begun trying to conceive. Last month we were over the moon to have a positive, just for me to start bleeding three days later.

I cried a lot and couldn't shake how upset I was over something so seemingly small, and why we were only allowed to know about its existence for a few days. It felt like the biggest punch to the gut.

We decided we would try again this month, however last month had set me back majorly with my mental health. I have been unable to cope with stress and lashing out at myself when I mess up the slightest of things.

I'm currently 11 days past ovulation, and last night (10 dpo) I started bleeding again, it wasnt much so I thought it to be implantation bleeding (it's too early for my period, surely). This morning it was a bit heavier, and a lot more red.

It's absolutely broken my heart. I know so many more of you go longer without getting that big fat positive, and I'm so amazed by your resilience. All I can think is that my body is toxic and doesn't want me to be able to do this. I feel like a huge failure and so miserable.