Think I may be depressed

This month is a year of TTC and also our 1 year wedding anniversary. We have our first appointment this Friday and although I’m happy for be getting some answers I’m not happy that it’s come to this. I noticed I’d been having the urge to buy things, not big or expensive items but someone to lift me up. A friend said it was a sign of depression and she may be right. All I think about is one day starting a family. I’m always praying to God and asking for wisdom and patience and to help heal my heart. I never knew how painful of a hole this could be. I’m tired of all the emotions and the everything that comes with this journey. I want to live and let go but it’s so fucking hard, to say the least.