I just need to vent to someone because right now I feel like the worst person on the planet. I'm pregnant with my first and I'm still really early. Almost 8 weeks. I have great support around me with my family and my fiancé and his family is very supportive too. But since we found out we're pregnant our relationship has been so strained. And he has turned into a completely different person. He is spiteful and down right mean to me. We fight about money all the time and obviously a couple who fights about money like this, won't last. It's become apparent for some reason now, and regretfully not sooner that he will always love his money more than he ever will me or this child. I have been so sick through this entire pregnancy and I have been so stressed and unhappy due to money worries that I've said in tears to my mom and my best friend that I no longer want this baby. I don't want anything to do with any part of this. And I also feel like a monster because I don't want a baby to come into a situation like this. It's horrible and it does not deserve this. As the words miscarriage come out of my mouth my heart just drops to my feet. Because even though I'm not really excited for this baby (bummer, not how I imagined my first pregnancy) I don't really want to lose it either. But I feel like my words have cursed this and it makes me worry even more about losing it. I know I probably sound like a hot terrible mess, but has anyone else ever felt this kind of pressure and stress? I'm so sad and scared and worried and I just want things to be so much different. I just feel lost about this all.