Talk me down

I really just need some words of encouragement. I’m struggling so much with my post baby body. This is my second child however my first is 10 years old and everything is so much saggier this time around and the weight is out of control. Before baby I did a pretty good job at maintaining a good exercise and health routine. I was 165 then I started

fertility meds

and by the time I was pregnant I was 190 pounds (I was only on the meds for two months). When I had my son Grey I was 235 and then I went down to 209. Now I’m at 215, I am a full time breast feeding mother and I constantly feel like I’m on a timer. I thought eating better would be easy but I find myself constantly reaching for the ready made unhealthy stuff. I’m constantly hungry. Now 5 months pp it’s about time for me to go back to work and Grey refuses a bottle. How am I suppose to go to work if no one can watch him longer then 2 to 3 hours? Ughhh I was fine up until this moment now I’m starting to feel like I’m loosing myself. Lorddddddd!!!!!! On a happy note here’s my babies

Ava and Grey