Emotional

Ladies.. idk how to go about this. My husband and i had sex and he came first and told me to finish with my vibrator.. i dont want that.. i want him.. i havent had great sex in 3-4 months and im craving it so damn bad! He gets what he wants all the time.. he cums all the time i dont. And he knows i dont he wont finish me off. I just feel like a toy to him.. hes always tired. Or doesnt feel like it. It just pushing me away and un happy with our sex life and its making me think something is wrong with me. im starting to feel disgusted..