I am posting here because I have no one to turn to, I am a baby christian and my relationship with God hasn’t been the best. Recently I’ve been doing so bad and i used my circumstances as an excuse to sin. There is this guy that I like he goes to the same church as I. We are not dating but we like each other. One day we hanged out by ourselves and one thing led to another and we kissed. Then we hung out a couple of times, things escalated, we had dry sex. Then recently we both lost our virginity to each other. We have been doing this in secret and I don’t know what to do. I feel so bad because I know it’s a sin. And I can’t keep going to church like this and praying to God when I am in sin. I love him and I feel like I can’t let go because of this bond we have since we were each other’s first; and I can’t stop. I know it’s wrong but I want to do it. What can I do? We already had a pregnancy scare. Should I just give up?