Need advice (no hateful comments) really sad

So I was with a guy for over 4 years, he ended things an I was so heart broken I met another guy eventually but it might have been too soon an we ended up getting married, beginning of our marriage was tough, got better then now we have our ups and downs. So my husband is a good man, he takes care of me an my family, my whole family loves him, he’s a good dad, hes from another state, but moved to mine because I wanna be with my family, he’s a good man most the part but he has his downs, he gets angry quickly, he’s even made scenes in front of my mom and sister but that was A very rare thing, he’s better at calming down an communicating but every so often when him and I get Into a disagreement he swears, he says he hates being married to me, he’ll say negative comments about my family, I started going to therapy because when I got my family involved it would get messy, so therapy was my outlet, he never came with me even though I asked, he went alone a couple of times but that’s it. My husband is the type who will hold things in and then burst , so for along time I worked with him an got him to communicate better, I even did things differently to communicate better, now yes i do have my flaws an I play my role an when we get into, i could be dramatic but I’m learning to walk away, but even walking away, he still is disrespectful and I’m not at all. I also caught him watching porn the other day an he denies it 🙄 we kinda got into it because I don’t feel comfortable with him watching it especially because we’re pretty intimate so I’m confused a little, anyway I told myself I’m gonna look at everything in a different perspective, finish reading my book on marriage be more positive, walk away fully when upset with him, explain things in a nicer way pray to god etc and see what happens between us. My question is do I stay with a man who’s verbally Abusive sometimes? To be honest I love him but I feel I’m not fully happy! I would never know how to leave especially cuz I’m a stay at home mom and I only have been looking at his good side. I’m so lost and sad idk what to do. Will post anonymously so thank you in advance!