Happiness > marriage
So my husband and I been married a little over 2 years. When we first got married he told me 2 months after that he has genital warts. I had noticed bumps on him and asked him previously he told me he didnt know what they were and he would see a doctor. So I said okay, I'll love you no matter what. As time went on I kept talking about it becoming nervous and scared. He finally told me the truth that he has them and how scared he was to tell me. I was not understanding for him and I was mad he lied to me about something so serious. I felt as if he showed of told me before marrying me. Anyways since then we have had serious marital issues. We never got help just tried to work through them ourselves. Then that led to more lies, porn addiction and no trust. That manifested into a very toxic situation very quickly. It took me a long time to notice and when I say long time, 2 years or so which to some of you isn't long at all. I didn't trust the man. Although i wanted to so desperately. We have gone through infertility together. We have gone through so much I could go on for days. All I'm saying is by me not trusting him and letting go the fact of what he did in that lie alone has had me on edge for a while. Time went on I didn't think about the warts so much, I was spending all my time trying to figure out if I was being lied to! October 2018 we tried for a 6 month separation which didn't work so I moved back in. The point is i did so much stuff I now regret. We have fully decided to get a divorce. We don't have children which is kind of heart breaking but at the same time I wouldn't want them being raised in unhealthy environment. I feel thankful I have made the decision to move on from the man who I couldn't trust. He walked on egg shells for the trust I could not provide him. I was confused bc he couldn't think straight enough to decide if he wanted to continue this life with me. I have made big mistake. None that can be taken back just ones to learn from. I'm trying to find myself, it's hard because I was only worried about him and if he is out lying, drinking booze, talking to an ex, really at work when he said he would be. Just a nightmare to live by. Once I realized our happiness was gone, our marriage was dead and he felt scared that was it for me. Most people tell me not to care about his happiness but I do. I want the best for the first man I ever got the chance to marry. We both deserve to be happy. I did have to move out of our home. For right now I'm trying to focus on myself and not what someone else is doing. I never thought I would see the day. Just know if your going through hard times its important to put yourself first if that's what's needed. It's your life and after all your the one that has to live it everyday. So make yourself proud, nobody else's opinions matter!!!
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