My godmom's cousins always have events and people over for holidays and stuff. So they have two sons one whos 17 and one whos 14(im 13). So my sister has became closer friends with the other brother(she just turned 18) so we go over there and chill or whatever. Reminder NOT ALL BOYS AND GIRLS HAVE FEELINGS TO BECOME FRIENDS so they are just cool or whatever.

We went over there this past Christmas and there were alot of people there and i dont really like those types of scenes so me, his cousin Sydney, and the younger brother, Evan, were upstairs chilling in his room. We turned on a movie and were just chilling. He has this chair in his room and Sydney decided to take up the whole hed so we had to squeeze in the chair😂. We got comfy or whatever and were cool then Sydney left but we didnt move cause it was warm and wasnt too cramped. So then we kinda started cuddling and stuff then somwhiw our fingers got intertwined and we were messing with eachothers hands. We were like this for like 3-4 hours. Then we left and ever since then i've been crushing. Hard. It was just some normal stuff like both of our families wouldn't think anything if they walked in. We have always heen close and lol his mom wants us to he together so bad😂she calls me stepdaughter and everything😭. I've been over there a few times since then but it was like a invite friends type situation.

Then this past friday my sister and the older brother, James, had their friend group together. They are all seniors and are all like one group of friends and stuff. They are all leaving for spring break and wanted to have a see you later type thing😂. When we got there i went up to his room and he was playing the game so i left and went downstairs with everybody else. Then he came down and asked me if i wanted ice cream and im a fatty so ofc i said yes. When we got upstairs we decided to just take the whole tub up to his room with spoons. Then we were just eating ice cream and watching movies. I had leaned on him then got off then he told me to switch spots so we could be tbh big spoon little spoon without the body touching stuff✝️🤣. We were just laying down talking and barely watching the movie then i told him i was getting sleepy and we just fell asleep just like that. It was literally the best night ever, it was like a dream that i didnt want to wake from. Then my sister came in and woke me up telling ke we were leaving. Im honestly so confused on what to do.

We dont really text and i had sent him iMessage games the other day but he never responded and idk what to do cause i really dont want to tell him how i feel then him not feel the same way and that to mess up our friendship😓. Please send help