Feeling discouraged

7 months TTC. Had a chemical last month at 5 weeks and we decided to try again right away. I ovulated again on the 12th of March.

Last month we got a faint positive the day before AF and looking back the only symptom was that I was short tempered a week prior.

This month BFN so far. AF due tomorrow and have some brown discharge (nothing on a liner, just when checking my cervix) and dull cramps so I’m pretty sure I’m out.

I’m so mad that I convinced myself it was our month. My mood was the same as last month, I’ve had a serious case of line eyes and even today could swear I could see a shadow on a test but likely wishful thinking.

I never thought it would take this long. I want so badly to be a mom :(