Waiting to see if it gappened👶

I ovulated 5 days ago and waiting to see if AF is going to show up in the next week or so. Good news is we moved into our new house and have been cleaning like crazy so it helps take my mind off things. Its four bedrooms and two baths. Out in the middle of no where which I LOVE. My boyfriend goes back to work tomorrow for a rig move, so I will be here in this empty house with my dog Layla lol shes my baby! I just dont want to be anxious over waiting..I am not a anxious person at all but I am starting to become one in this situation lol. Am trying to stay positive and still keep my sanity. Also I just want to enjoy this moment of our move together and not deal with ttc talks..that we seem to have more than we ever had. I did tell him I am willing to ttc for 5 more months but after that I am done. I will be 35 in May and i feel like if I ttc these next few months without any success then i want to move forward with OUR lives and just enjoy our days together like we have been. I guess maybe I just feel like being a mother is not in the cards for me,and I am okay with that. Sorry for the long post..just needed to air out some thoughts. Good luck to you ladies and have a great day!