I’m

21 years old, pregnant with my 2nd baby @6weeks. My 1st pregnancy I had an abortion and I was very far along 😞. I knew I was having a baby boy, but due to issues between the father and I (him being physically, verbally and emotionally abusive), one night he told me word for word “...that’s why I trapped you with a baby” I had to have a D&C in August 2016...I regretted since then because I wish I had met my little boy and wish I had a chance to been his mother.

Today, I’m with a really nice guy, we haven’t been dating for long and I’m already pregnant by him. Even though he’s known since the first time we had sex I wasn’t on B.C. and he still had unprotected intercourse with me. He’s even mention in a text message “you gone be pregnant” and had literally shook me because I wasn’t expecting to actually get pregnant. Well in the text conversation he seemed pretty cool with the fact “if I was...” and everything with that.

Now that I actually am, he wants me to get an abortion and I honest to God don’t want to have another one! It pissing me off how he’s switching up on me, even after the fact I caught his ass talking to other females😒. No I don’t want to keep the baby because I think it’s going to keep him, I just want my “baby” if that makes sense? He has told me “he’d break up with me and he would be just my babydaddy” & keeps telling me “the sooner the better.” It’s so frustrating because I have so much love for this man, he makes me forget about all the recent mishaps in my life. I just don’t know what to do. I want a family, but I know I can’t force anything and that’s the part that eats me up.

Any advice and words of encouragement would be nice.

Please be positive 💞