pcos taking a toll

hey you lovely ladies. lately the thought of me having pcos has taken a serious toll on my mental health. i feel as though i am broken in some way. the thought of never having my own child haunts me- even the long process of possible of fertility treatments. at time i feel as though i am half a woman. the older i get, the more my baby fever rises and it just hurts somewhere deep inside that i may never experience the joys of being a mother. i’ve been diagnosed since i was about 12 and at first i thought i could readily cope but after 5+ years it’s just getting worse and worse. i don’t even fully understand the condition i have. i don’t understand what my body is doing. all i know is that i am confused and hopeless. so ladies have you ever experienced these feelings? how do you even cope? i find myself walking around in a fit of rage all day everyday because of it😔