I’m getting angrier every day at my sister (Long rant)

I mean, I know she is seriously self observed & mostly only cares about herself. However, I consider her to be my best friend and talk to her about EVERYTHING. I have been struggling to conceive for many years & haven’t been very happy about it. My sister doesn’t know the full extent of my struggles but she knows that I’ve been wanting children for years and have yet to have any. She knows that being a mom is literally the ONE thing I want more in this world.

So here’s where the problem comes in. Back in October, I found out that I was FINALLY pregnant. Of course I immediately told my sister & one other person. My sister basically congratulated me then moved on to talk about something else. About a week later, I ended up having a miscarriage and her response was “See this is why you shouldn’t tell people so early on.” Umm, what??? I only told TWO people! I was so upset with her then that I told her the next time I get pregnant, she will find out when everyone else does.

Fast forward to February, and surprise! Through the help of fertility clinic, I get pregnant once again. I debated whether or not to tell my sister this time around & ultimately decided to tell her again. I did wait a little longer this time around though. Initially, she was very excited about it. But now it’s like she goes out of her way not to mentioned it. We talked about it the day I told her & that’s it. It’s been weeks now & she doesn’t even ask how I am doing.

I am pretty pissed off about it because I am really excited about this baby & I just want to be able to talk about it openly with her. She is the one person that I used to be able to go to about these things.

My husband says she could be jealous that I am pregnant but that makes no sense! She has 2 children of her own! I really hope that is not the case because as I said, I have been trying for YEARS to get pregnant. She got pregnant at 20 with no issues! I do think she could be upset or jealous because she feels like my life is better than hers. But hell, it’s not my fault I made different life choices than her. And I struggled like hell to get to where I am today. Plus I have a disability that hinders me from doing certain things (like driving g!). It makes me so mad to think that anyone could be jealous or envious of me in any way, shape, or form.

Idk man, I just wish she could be happy for me. I was happy for her & there for her all those years ago when she had her babies. I encourage her when she needs it. I’m always in her corner with a helping hand whenever she needs me. I wish the love could be reciprocated.