I found out I was pregnant on Sunday, went to the doctors Tuesday. Wednesday they confirmed I was 4-6 weeks pregnant.

Today, pretty sure I had a miscarriage. I’ve been spotting on and off for 1.5 weeks and today it’s red and heavy. I just know I lost the baby.

Waiting for the doctor to call me back. This is my first positive pregnancy. I need some ❤️ right now from you guys.. who can relate? Did you have a healthy baby after a miscarriage?

I can’t help but think this is my fault.. I was drinking at parties, smoking weed to help me sleep, and taking vyvanse as I have ADHD. I stopped everything once I found out I was pregnant. I feel like a shit bag.

UPDATE:

Yesterday my doctor sent me to get blood work done. My numbers were, “not doubling as they should” and with continued bleeding, a large brown blood clot passed, my doctor sent me to the ER. They needed to rule out ectopic pregnancy. After being poked, prodded, so much blood taken my veins got hard where it was taken, I finally left.

I had blood work, pelvic exam, and an ultra sound.

-pelvic exam: my cervix was dilated

-ultrasound: they still see and embryo and a sac attached in my uterus. There is also a blood clot. My legs trembled the whole time. They had to do one from the outside and inside.

The doctor in the ER said I’m having a miscarriage. My doctor today said I’m still pregnant. There is no way to know what’s going on. I got simply have lost a baby because I had twins, have a blood clot, or it could be a sign of more serious things. I am getting more blood work Monday and an ultrasound in 2 weeks.

I’m so tired. I just want answers. I went from being pregnant, miscarriage, to your pregnant we don’t know what is happening. 😔