I had two losses. My SIL is a doctor. When told my SIL i am pregnant during my first pregnancy, she kept on telling me not to get hopes and i might loose. I came to a point, i told my husband to stop her feeding me negativity. Till date i feel she had her role in my loss. I know this might sound bad, but she is the one convinced me its no good. I had another loss and never told her. I know she is planning from the same time as i am. Today she called us and told she is expecting a girl in August.i just felt good for her, but I am not feeling happy. I dont know what i am turned into. Usually i am the one who would feel so happy for them. Nowadays all i think about are my losses. I am being sucked into the thought of having a baby. I dont know how to get out of it.