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This is a long post so bare with me...I feel like God is playing a sick joke on me. I have 2 perfectly healthy beautiful children but I’m not done. I want just one more baby. I had a miscarriage between my children, but other than that getting pregnant and having a healthy pregnancy was so easy. I knew I was very blessed.

After my second child was born in 2016 we’ve been trying for our last baby. I’ve gotten pregnant and miscarried three times since we’ve tried for our last baby. My current pregnancy is the farthest I’ve made it(7+2). I had some brown spotting/red blood a week ago, but we still saw heartbeat and baby at 5w6d and again at 7 wks. My hcg numbers were the highest I’d ever seen them at 20,000. I was finally starting to relax a little and even made a post about being THANKFUL FOR MORNING SICKNESS.

Today, I saw red blood that has turned into period-like blood. I’m 99% sure this is my 5th miscarriage. I just had to let it all out to hopefully heal. I’m praying so hard that everything is fine with baby, but after the luck I’ve had trying to get baby #3, I’m trying to be prepared for the worst. Thanks for listening...