I’m honestly just happy😁

So my husband and I are a super young couple about to leave are little place just on the mondak border and head to Boise. I’ve heard it’s a great place to raise a family and just a great place in general. Recently, I got my Nexplanon taken out due to crazy mood swings, suppressed appetite, constant depression, my body rejecting it, and so much more! Fun right?! Well anyway, I didn’t start another birth control immediately because I want to take some time for my system to clear and to get on somewhat of a regular cycle again. I told him that when we have sex to just pull out or wear a condom unless he wants to risk it. We both don’t like condoms after finally being on a birth control where we didn’t need one and pulling out is well.. sometimes hard to control. I told him to decide the last few times and he didn’t pull out any of the times. I’ve had insane baby fever and he says he wants to wait, and I totally respect that, but I think he secretly wants a baby too. It’s still much too early to tell, but if I am pregnant, I want to surprise him I’m a fun and cute way! I’ve already decided that when the time comes I want a very natural birth and I don’t want to tell anyone until around 6-7 months. We both had rough childhoods and I just know he’s going to be that dad that neither of us had in our lives and I hope I can be the mom that we both needed growing up. We already have so much love for this thing that is yet to be and I’m so excited. Even though at this point I’m scientifically “not pregnant” until at least a week from now, I’m kind of hoping we are! I have so much love for him. I could go on for hours😍