ONE YEAR CLEAN FROM HEROIN 💕😏

Yesterday I celebrated my first year clean by working and doing school work, then being the emotional wreck of a pregnant lady that I am to my ever so loving boyfriend. Needless to say it wasn't a great day, but simply knowing how much I've changed in a year was a fulfilling feeling. Overwhelming even. I struggled for 5+ years with IV heroin use, I got clean one year ago when my own mom called the cops on me for using drugs when I was on a week long visit that turned into a new life. That being said I left my house, my car, and all of my belongings but 5 days of clothes in my old state and started over completely with nothing. Seems like something to be resentful over to someone who is still using, but looking back on it she did nothing but save her daughter's life and give me a second chance. I died FOUR times, and it didn't stop me. Nothing will stop someone who isn't ready. Even when I was ready I wasn't willing to go through the pain of withdrawing. My mom had to force me into it, and I'm grateful. I could have gotten out of jail and went right back to it, but deep down I was so ready, and all I needed was a push through the pain. I spent 45 days in jail sick as all get out for about 10 days, I couldn't eat, shower, sleep, and considered killing myself every single day in there. I got through it, because it is WORTH IT. I was even offered drugs in jail and declined them because I was READY. After jail I spent 6 months in rehab where I got certified and was employed as a recovery coach, I got my record wiped clean, got my license in another state fixed because it was suspended, got a wonderful job, fell in love with an incredible man, we conceived a child who is due October 17th, I'm full time at a prestigious university in my area finishing my bachelor's degree to be a therapist, and today I bought myself a car. I've owned 4 cars since I was 17 and my dad paid for all 4 of them. I did this on my own. I saved up my tips from the diner I work in and bought myself a car with no help. I had support along the way don't get me wrong, but no one handed me anything and I WORKED for this. I didn't even ask for help when I knew I could get it, because I wanted to do this without anyone else's money. My money, my time, my work, MY FIRST CAR. It is truly insane how much my life has changed, and it has only been a year. I can't imagine where I'll be next year, or 5 years from now, or 10. I know next year I'll be celebrating with the love of my life and our sweet little baby. There is something so exciting about every little bit of independence I'm gaining after 5+ years of being a miserable, emotionless, terrible shell of a person. 1 year 1 day clean, 11 weeks 3 days pregnant. My life is so beautiful. I can't wait to share this life I have with the life in my belly and the man I adore. Anyone at all who is struggling please please please find it in yourself to get the help you need. It's the hardest part I promise. Stay strong lovely people 💕

Here's my new/used car! Paid in full by me and only me!

Here is my handsome man, and myself loving our life 😍

Here is my beautiful baby at my first ultrasound, the best gift I could have ever received and perfect motivation to keep pushing!

You guys can do it, whatever it is! Set your mind to the things you want and need and do everything in your power to make it happen. If you read this far thank you so much, and I hope you all get what you want out of life.