The Struggle

My partner and I have been trying to conceive naturally for two years now even though I have PCOS. I was really diligent with testing and tracking for the first year, but I just couldn't live with all the BFNs anymore. 
My cycle has regulated pretty well in the last few months (+/- 1 week) so I should be coming up to another AF soon. 
I've got horrible breast pain, I'm totally exhausted and my cervix is still very soft. I want to test again but I don't know if I can see another BFN
Oh, the struggle.