Okay so, last night I went out for my birthday. I wanted to celebrate from the top of the clock 12am. So I went to Josephine Lounge with my “Situationship”. I’ll call him “T” . After T and I waited in the line and paid $60 entry fee and got drinks, a girl taps me on the shoulder and asks if me and T are a couple and if we came together. I say “No we aren’t a couple but we’re here together.” So she invites us to her boyfriends V.I.P Section, as well as any other pretty girls she sees along the way. It’s his birthday and she wants us to dance and turn up in his section. So “T” says yeah and starts rolling one up with them and smoking and we drinking. So I’m sitting down because I’m kinda of shy (I’m a girl who grabs attention and is looked at often, and I don’t have any rhythm and I’m not very confident in dancing especially knowing people stare at me) and she leans to me and tells me she wants me to dance, so for a bit i dance sitting down, make some snap chats and chill. She leans in like 5 mins later and asks me to stand up and dance. So I stand up and dance for a bit but they’re playing a song I don’t know and I’m all off beat because I’ve never heard the words and Im feeling even more shy because I’m tipsy and had some drinks I don’t wanna make a fool of myself. She leans in again and says she wants both of us to dance and turn up in the section. So at this point I say “ okay when I get back, T is going to take me to the bathroom.” So, I ask him to take me to the bathroom and when we get around the corner I tell him, I’m dizzy she basically wants us to be props for her boyfriend VIP, she done leaned in my ear like 4 times can we chill somewhere else? And he’s mad going off saying it would look lame to go from the VIP to having no where to sit and walk around on the floor, and he don’t wanna go back the section without me and that’s lame and blah blah blah. I tell him fine, I’ll dance but I’m dizzy I need a minute to re group can he walk me to the car? And he gets even more mad cause they are gonna close in like a hour and he wants to talk to the guy and get connected and I’m fumbling a bag. And all this bs. And I’ve made him look awkward and lame and by now I’m crying because of course ( I’m senestive cause my pms makes me have crying spells) and hes making me feel bad and I didn’t think it was that big of a deal why does he care so much about what everybody else thinks!? They didn’t pay for anything? Why do I have to be a prop for somebody else’s vip section and dance on my birthday when I don’t want to? What do y’all think? I should have just danced and not said anything?

If y’all see this post wanna send advice and birthday coins feel free lol I think ima go out alone tonight? $luherickaaa