2 days late

Long story short. I’ve had 3 miscarriages. One through IVF when I suffered from infertility and two since (both conceived naturally). We are trying naturally until this summer and then one last go at IVF before we adapt our plans. I’m 2 days late and I almost don’t want to be pregnant because I don’t want to go through another miscarriage. It’s so crazy. It’s been almost 5 years of doing anything on earth to get pregnant and now I dread it because I’m convinced I’m just going to lose it. What a mind game. Anyone else feel this way?