Some questions and how I got my BFP a year after my second loss

First let's get to those questions I see everywhere!

- Don't bother taking a test at 6-9dpo honestly it's rare to get a positive. Try to wait till 11dpo or later. I know it's hard!!

-when you pee after sex it DOES NOT leak sperm. Sperm is carried is semen and that is what comes out of you. Sperm goes straight into the uterus and takes 30 min to travel to the the egg.

-when you get a positive opk BD that day and the next 2 days after!

-discharge does not always mean anything before AF

-not all women get implantation bleeding (most don't)

-you also don't feel implantation happening either.

Ok on to my journey. A little back story:

December 23rd of 2017 a month after I was married I got my BFP. I wasn't trying or tracking. I also had a dream about it! Then I had a dream I lost my baby days before I did. Wednesday Jan 3rd of 2018 I was out shopping and had horrible pains. I just felt like I really had to .. go to the bathroom.. I got home and had some bleeding. Quit a bit too. But after I went to the bathroom it went away and no more pain. The next Wednesday I was in the shower and the cramps were soooo bad I couldn't stand up. I knew something was wrong and spent 7 hours in the ER for them to tell me I had an empty uterus.

It took 7 weeks for my to get AF back. I was also naïve about OPKs at this point. One night my husband did the deed and I took a test after at about 8pm and got a positive opk. That was the only time we BD and the night before had a dream I got a positive test. on March 10th 2018 at 11dpo I got a BFP. Wow this is easy I guess ... called the dr and got an apt. Knowing I wasn't going to be 8weeks Because I ovulated so late (a week before AF)

At 6w5d I saw my baby on the screen and was sooo happy. Due the day before thanksgiving and right near my moms bday. Everyone was so happy.

April 16th of 2018 I woke up and started bleeding. Instantly I KNEW something was wrong. My dr office which was right next to the ER told me to go there they wouldn't deal with it!! So I spent 4 hours there. To hear my baby's heart stopped at 7weeks ... days after my ultrasound. I carried my baby till 8w5d not knowing.

I had a weird gut feeling something was wrong , that the heart would stop. So trust your gut!!

This last year watching everyone have babies and get pregnant was soo hard. I needed to seek help for being bitter and angry.

Fast forward .. how I got my BFP!

I read a lot about Maca root. So I started taking it, I got my husband on it also. He doesn't get much sleep and that causes low sperm count. Maca helps men with that. I also started talking B6. When I got my positive opk on Monday the 18th I BD then , the next 2 days also. I felt the ovulation pain on Tuesday CD10.

In January I had a polyp removed that was blocking a tube and got my bicorniate uterus re shaped.

Don't let people think you're crazy if you think you see a line! No one could see mine but I did!!

This was the first test Sunday: Saturday I was sooo dizzy. I felt drunk it was bad.