I got some bad news.

So hubby had a reversal back in October and his sperm could came back low and dr said we need another test but if it doesn’t change and need to look into IVF. I’m really crushed and balled my eyes out for 5 hours. Like UGLY crying, makeup all over my face. I’m so upset. He has 2 kids with someone else who I love but it makes me so upset and want to say mean things. (I said them to my best friend instead) like he was forced into having a vasectomy and now we can’t have kids even after the 10 thousand dollar procedure. Then on top of it I’m fucking sick as a dog. Like nasty sinus infection AND in the same day I got my fucking period. I just need some love ladies. I’m really down in the dumps rn. Im trying my hardest to not think about it but I just want to continue to cryyy. :(