My husband doesn’t understand

After I have caught my husband talking to other girls and receiving nudes he has the audacity to get mad after I said I didn’t trust him like I used to. Like does he not understand how much it hurt to see him calling other women beautiful or princess? Or asking for nudes from them having me? Now I’m all fucked up in the head with not only trust issues but my mental health is all fucked and I feel disgusted with my body that wasn’t enough for him. After having kids I understand it doesn’t look like it did before but I tried my best to please him however I could. He is fine, while I feel so ugly and lonely.