When I was 11 I was raped by my estranged half brother who was twice my age.

It has been almost 11 years now since it happened and I have been affected by t ever since. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD because of it. Which is so weird to admit. It also feels so weird to admit that I was raped.

Being raped by a blood relative carries an extra burden, in my opinion. I feel like I can’t talk with anyone about it and it makes me feel like...white trash, honestly.

You know what I’ve realized lately... something that extra sucks about being an incest victim is that you look similar to your rapist. Sometimes I’m not even thinking about the rapist but I just catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and see a similarity of him in my own face.

That is hard to deal with. I already have a lot of self esteem issues as it is. This has only really made it worse. I just wonder when, if ever, I’ll be able to let go and be free. It just really sucks that I feel so not free because of somebody else’s disgusting and selfish actions.

I just had to get this out there. Any tips or advice is welcome. Thank you.