Final Days - Health / weight concerns

Only have 12 more days till my scheduled c! In the mean time I'm trying so hard to be good food wise...but I'm also so tired, still working, and over being preggo so I do just say f it sometimes. Overall not horrible but I have this stupid worry this baby will be like 12lbs. My first girl was 9.8 and all the exclamation about it was so annoying, cant imagine a bigger one. Measurements are on track but no ultra sounds or anything. With my first I gained 60lbs or so, so far with this one it's been about 38. I lost all the weight before not worried about that, just the babe. I dunno! Of course I just want her to be healthy in the end!!! Her hiccups all the time worry me...and horribly selfish to think I dont know how I'd handle if something isnt all ok. GETTING MORE AND MORE ANXIOUS towards the end...ahhh...and feel like with #2 cant remember anything and nervous about breastfeeding cause I want my body back. :( Hoping once baby is here it will all make sense...