Twin sex disappoint

I feel awful yesterday i gound out were carrying non identical twin boys am a mother already to 2 boys 7 and 4 i had this with my 2nd i got over it but it did put me off having anymore but i thought maybe my luck is in this time for a girl so we started trying but then we got told my twins are boys why could i of least had 1 girl there am the only 1 out of all my siblings with no girl breaking my heart as i dont want anymore and ive told the hubby to get snipped everything i had planned in my head gone no pink no dresses nothing how do i fill that void am 37 this yr my body and mind cannot go through this heart ache again 😔