Just venting....

So Feb 12th 2018, I miscarried. It was the most painful thing I have experienced emotionally. I was so excited, I already have two amazing boys (8&10), and I was happy to add one more. I raise 4 boys (2 nephews, 12&14). I told everyone the great news. Then I started bleeding when I was supposed to be between 14 & 15 weeks. Didn’t have any doctor care yet, I was waiting for a financial issue to clear. Anyways, I miscarried. Baby stopped growing at 10 weeks. Well, I found out Mar 5th that I was pregnant again and I have been worried ever since. I’ve been to the doctor and had blood work done to test my hormone levels. All was good. Had my first ultrasound on the 26th. This app said I was 11 weeks 1 day. The US tech said I was measuring 10 weeks 6 days. She said everything looked fine, but I’m still worried. No one, but one friend knows I’m pregnant. Not even the dad. I’m scared to tel people because I don’t want to deal with having to tell people that I lost another baby. I did the genetic testing and I’m still waiting for the results, but I don’t even think that will make me feel better. I’m just so nervous all the time.