My boyfriend has had way more relationships than I have and that’s fine he’s older than me by like 3 years so it’s bound to be.

I know that he loves me and he thinks I’m prefect, he’s even said before that he’s never felt so comfortable with someone or so connected. But I just can’t help but to think;

She was prettier than me, she is so skinny, she’s athletic, her hair is perfect, her skin is flawless, she’s so happy... I’m nothing like these girls. I’m not his type why did he even talk to me. I simply can’t help but to think I’m not good enough.

We have been together for over a year and a half, it’s not like I think he’s cheating or anything I know he would never. We were just hanging out and cleaning up so things and in a box in his closet there was a photo album that his ex made for him. She’s beautiful, blonde with the cutest wavy hair, skinny, tall. And there she is holding him the way I do. Kissing him like I do, smiling with him like I do. And then the other day my best friend (were all from the same little town) posted a snap with a girl my boyfriend happened to look over and he just goes “I used to date her” never had he even mentioned her. I didn’t ask any questions because I simply don’t want to know about her.

I’m just being insecure and jealous, but I can’t help it. He never compares me but it’s like I’m have a battle in head constantly thinking “Did you do this with them too?”

Last weekend his youngest brother (10) told me I was his favorite girlfriend and he hopes we get married because he thinks we are the perfect couple, he didn’t know how bad I needed to hear that but it eased my mind so much❤️ I love my boyfriend and I love his family, I know they all love me too!