Anxiety attacks

So I never used to have anxiety until I was 22. I moved in with my now husband , I was trying to find work so I was home all day alone. When we first moved in he was working away from home during the week. So all day everyday alone messed me up. I soon got over it and never happened again.

Fast forward to January 2018 when I first got pregnant it was the first week of January (I got a positive December 23rd) and I was out shopping with my mother in law. I had horrible stomach pains like I need to "go to the bathroom" I raced home and was bleeding with horrible cramps.

That's where I learned I lost my baby. It was a chemical.

Then when I lost my second I was cramping so badly. Now that I'm pregnant again, when I have the slightest stomach ache and feel like I "need to go to the bathroom" I start having an anxiety attack.

I waited a year to become pregnant again , I want this so freaking bad!

But I don't want to be cooped up in my house and never come out. I just hope that once I know everything is safe and I get passed a certain point in pregnancy all of this will go away 😭