Don’t know how much more I can take

Just got my period after it being 23 days late and I cannot stop crying even tho this cycle I tried sooo hard not to get my hopes up. I’ve been emotionally/physically/mentally drained since my miscarriage back in May of 2018 an since the moment I found out I haven’t been the same since and it sucks I put on this fake smile and happy personality for everyone because I’ve just always dealt with things on my own but as soon as I get any chance to be alone I’m crying and asking god for help because I just feel so lost