I can't even describe the heartache and devastation, the fertility meds, the tests, the cycle monitoring, ultrasounds, bloodwork, the probably hundreds of dollars in ovulation and pregnancy tests, we will try <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> soon. But I don't have much hope. I have a co-worker right now who is 8 months pregnant, and many other co-workers who are always pregnant or on maternity leave. I have given up. I don't even think I have truly been alive the last 4 years. I am just breathing and getting through the day. I don't think anybody else can ever understand the devastation except other people who have been ttc for a long time.