I need some advise!!😫

Jackie • 16 on here to get advice

Ok so I don’t have a boyfriend and I don’t know how to get one cause most of my friends have them and I actually want someone that will be special and I don’t want to just have a boyfriend to show!! I like this boy(I’m 14 btw) and he’s so funny but when I’m around him I turned to a fucking tomato and i get called ugly by some people and I mean I kinda believe them but I try my best to act pretty!!😫😭 should I just act like myself? Should I tell him how I feel?? I need some advise pls.....!!!!!❤️