I found out I was pregnant on the 26/2. From the very start my boyfriend pressured me into an abortion, any time I would say I was scared or didn’t want to do it, he would harass me with messages as to why I had to go through with it. Things we would miss out on if we had a baby.

2 weeks after finding out I was pregnant he told his mum, she said she didn’t believe in abortions and that we would have to keep the baby. I was so happy, and told my boyfriend that if he kept saying we could keep it I would get attached. For 3 days we talked about keeping the baby, moving out, our future, chose a name for if it was a boy. Then he texted me and said he changed his mind. He didn’t want the baby. I was devastated. He said his mum said he would lose his inheritance and she would cut him off from the family if we kept the baby. I felt even more pressured than before to go through with the abortion, because I didn’t want him to lose his family. I told him if he didn’t want to be with me I would keep the baby and just not put him on the birth certificate so he wouldn’t have any legal obligations towards the baby or myself.

He said he wanted to be together, that he would be there for me during the abortion and that afterwards we could plan to move away and get away from both of our families. So I went through with it. 21/3, a day I’ll regret forever. He went to the clinic with me, I had a medical abortion. The next day he went to work, I was texting him about how much pain I was in, after work he went shopping and to the gym before coming to see me. The next day we went to his football game, even though I was still in extreme pain, bleeding a lot and still passing clots. On our way home, he admitted that his mum had actually apologised for what she said, had taken it all back and said we and the baby were welcome any time. She apologised 2 days after saying she’d cut him off. But he used it against me for nearly 2 weeks to manipulate me into an abortion. On the 26/3, a month after my positive pregnancy test, 5 days after my abortion, he broke up with me. He’s cut me off completely, blocked me on everything. I am heartbroken. I killed my baby for a lie. I’ve lost everything, and don’t even want to live anymore. I don’t know how I will keep living knowing that I should have my baby here still, but that I got rid of it because I wasn’t strong enough to stand up for us both...