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Sometimes I really hate it when I get aroused. I hate wanting to masturbate, for a few reasons. Number one is I have anxiety about being heard. My room isn’t exactly the most discreet I’m in the house, and my dad and his wife are constantly moving around at night. Number two is I feel... gross doing it. Like, there’s some kind of stigma around it, and I’m already really self conscious, and would absolutely die if anybody were to find out. I think. Like, I’m no virgin, but I still get really anxious about it. Idk what to do or how to feel. On the off occasion I DO indulge, I rarely actually peak. 😡 I’m very upset about it.