I never feel like a good mom🥺

People say “Aww Your Son is Sooo Happy” && At that moment I feel Proud then BOOM I feel like im not doing a good job. My mom says it’s because ima single mother and my bd treats me bad & says mean things and even though It doesn’t get to me, (I feel like it doesn’t bother me, cuz im used to it) she thinks it hits my soul without me knowing or understanding.

Help me understand why I feel like this

Sincerely

A PPD 1st Time Mommy