Past sexual abuse, maybe?? TW

Okay I really don’t know where to start with this....I was having a conversation with my mother today and I made an off handed comment about my father dating women my age, I said it was creepy and pretty off putting. Well she admitted that he’s done weird stuff like that before; things such as being in my bedroom alone in the dark with odd excuses why, locking doors with us in the room, disappear with me while my mom was napping, and just having very odd behavior when my mom would find him with me alone. She admitted to never having good feelings about that so she started keeping me with her as much as possible and trying to make sure i was never alone with him. Around those time I was 6-8 years old and I honestly can’t remember much from those years of my life and truthfully I always felt anxious being alone with my father and we never really got along when I was older, something about me just always hated him. My husband pointed out what all this sounds like but I honestly don’t want to accept it even being a possibility....what would you do in my place?