I think I still love my husband but 4 years ago we had a baby and I got extremely severe post partum and since then our sex like is miserable from my part it’s extremely difficult fir me to sleep with him even though he goes out of his way to please me but I don’t feel any emotional connection... so I wanted to see if I could still function as a women and I slept with someone else and I enjoyed it to the point that I cried bcz I don’t understand why I can’t have the same feeling with my husband I tried therapy and everything else we talk he understands me (dose not know I cheated) but no matter how hard I try I can’t I actually cry and pray when we are about to do it bcz the uncomfortableness is too much and mind you when we met I never in a millions years I would have thought we would be going through this ...