Im so emotional and sensitive lately. I cry very easily . And I’ve been thinking about suicide just thinking about it even though i wouldn’t do it. I just had a c section 9 days ago. I have my 9 day old son and my 13 month old son. Me and the father aren’t together but he still helps out. He’s with someone else now. Ive been so sad and angry with him because i feel like he chose women over his family because he wouldn’t stop cheating so i had to leave him 6 months ago. I feel guilt , self blame , and i feel like I’m not a good mom. Im so stressed and don’t get enough sleep and i forget to eat and sometimes just don’t feel like eating. I don’t want to go anywhere because i feel like its a hassle with 2 young kids. I love them though .