Hi, my name is Mary! I just turned 29 April 10th. Im engaged to an awesome, handsome, caring and loving man who is my age and we have a 9 month old little boy and right now we are staying with my dad in a big two story house. My 9 year old son also lives there with all of us. My situation is this....my parents were not happy when they found out I was pregnant with the boy who is 9 months now. It took them awhile to warm up to it. They were scared that I would not step up and be a parent bc in the past I have left my children with my parents to run after men, and be on dope, and go to rehabs. But I was 2 years sober when I had my new son and had to prove to my parents that that crap was not gonna happen again. No one has baby sat him yet so I think I am doing a great job! My mother moved out and divorced my dad for no other reason than she was not in love with him anymore! Total bs! I caught her on the phone with another man three times before she moved out! So now it’s just us and dad here! Well I just found out two days after my birthday that I am pregnant again! And I am terrified to tell my family this! I know what they will say and it’s nothing good! I feel like my younger brother should have all the attention right now bc they just had their first baby in March, a little girl and she was born with a condition where her cilia don’t work properly and it moved all her organs to the wrong side of her body and inverted them in utero! The cilia in her lungs cannot keep our germs or push mucus out of her lungs! The cilia in her Fallopian tubes will not be able to transport an egg to her uterus to implant and become pregnant either! She will be on antibiotics her whole life! She has breathing problems and will have to be home schooled! Which is gonna be hard on her parents bc they will need their incomes to help pay for all her treatments and medications! He is a lawyer and she a nurse! And I just don’t know how I’m going to tell my family “hey I got knocked up again already!” I can hear my mom now “I told u not to stop taking birth control and rely on bbt to avoid pregnancy bc ur gonna mess up Mary! But little does she know, I actually wasn’t preventing pregnancy! I wanted another baby! Hopefully a girl bc I never see my daughter ! I stopped raising her after she turned two, due to drugs that her father pushed me into doing so that I would help pay for them with my nursing paychecks! Well now I don’t have nursing paychecks! The six years of college I worked my ass off in to be a nurse has all went down the potty! I sit at home with a baby all day and can’t work bc no one will hire a former nurse with no experience in anything else for some damn reason! And my child won’t even let anyone watch him bc he gets too upset without me or dad around ! I don’t know what I’m going to do! Now we r stuck here with my dad bc I can’t work! I want us to get our own place. My man is not happy about our situation but wouldn’t dare leave me! He loves me a lot! Even at 200 lbs! I wish i could lose this weight and be beautiful again. I’m sorry I’m ranting must be pg hormones! I just wish things would be better and I don’t know how to break this news to my family! Babies are miracles...blessings....but every time I get pregnant my family is not happy but ohhhh when my brothers wife gets pregnant they are all happy and all about buying him whatever he needs! My parents didn’t get my new baby shit for Christmas! My mother didn’t throw me a baby shower either like she said she was gonna do! Yeah she bought me a few things when some ladies at church threw me a small thing but my dad didn’t help! The church gave me a crib and things! Not my family! No one in my family gave me any old baby clothes! Nothing. No one came to his birth or to visit at the hospital. And it’s gonna be even worse with this one. I have never gotten to do a baby room before either! I want to so bad. This may be my last baby! I pray it’s a girl! I want to do a candy land theme with cupcakes too! Maybe some unicorn stuff too 🦄 :)