To start off I've been married to my husband for nearly 6 years, I have two boys and he has two girls, all between the ages of 10-19, and we don't have any children together.

For the first 5 years or so of marriage I had an IUD, which was that taken out later than it should have been (another story) last summer and then I choose to try the shot. After reading horror stories I decided to deny my next shot appt and moved onto the pill. Idk if y'all have heard of the pill club, but they send your BC to you in the mail plus, some extra goodies that I enjoyed receiving. Then out of nowhere, shortly after my fall birthday, I felt off...

Long story short, I went to the doctors and they found out that I have a pulmonary embolism (blood clot) in my lung. The Dr's said it was from the BC I was taking and to stop use immediately. Now after being on blood thinners for about 5 months, I recently noticed withing the past week or so that my body was changing, my breasts started getting swollen and a little sore and I've missed my period by almost 2 weeks. Which being irregular is not normal for me anymore so, needless to say I was anxious to take a test... So yesterday I bought two tests. One for last night and this morning too, just to be sure.

Might I remind y'all that our kids range in age from 10-19 and because of this I think my husband is a little overwhelmed and I kinda figured he wouldn't be the happiest for such news esp because yesterday was his Birthday, but I just couldn't wait any longer. I honestly was going to wait to say anything to him but he walked into the bathroom while I was taking the test out of the package... Maybe I should have waited, I really wish I would have... Because his reaction, let's just say it was NOT was I was expecting or needing and I've been freaking out ever since! So here I sit, waiting for my Dr's to call me back because I can not continue my blood thinner medication while pregnant and will have to start an alternative. I think I forget to mention that last week at my hematologist (blood doctor) I learned I have a rare blood mutation which can cause continued blood clots. And now just finding out that I am pregnant, I am scared, feeling alone and stressed. 😢

I so badly want to be excited and wish my husband could be happy for us. I'm sure he will change how he feels after it sets in, and I feel terrible for ruining his birthday but I could just really use his support right now.