My Child was born January 14th, 2019. 6 pounds 7.3 ounce and 20 inches long. I can remember it as if it was yesterday. The day before he was born I had experienced contractions for the first time ever. I’m super excited about it, so I contacted everyone that morning around 4 a.m. My family and I are preparing things before we head to the hospital. My family gathers around at my house while I continue to wait for my water bag to burst. Nothing but the contractions are closer together. I decided after talking to several people to contact my doctor. He then states I should get ready and head to the delivery room.  Before I leave my mother is upstairs with me and I tell her look, baby z (Zachariah Diggs) is kicking. We both smiled and she touched my belly. This was a few hours actually before I departed from home. I am now at he hospital and they are giving me my ultrasound. The nurse says to me, my significant other and sister that she couldn’t find a heartbeat. She then contacts my doctor who has arrived if they could do another ultrasound for me. They then state the same thing. My heart drops, I tell them several times like NO this isn’t real. I shook my head as tears rolled down my face. My sister runs out the room then leaves the building. I call her to see where she was but she stated she couldn’t take the pain and left. My significant other is being extremely strong for us both. He continues to comfort me in this time of need. Hours later my family has arrived and we now have to tell my twins their sibling is no longer with us. The most hurtful thing in the world besides me losing my little guy. The next day is here and I am now delivering the most precious, most beautiful baby in the world to me. It is now three months since my little guy has been taken to do his duties for the lord. I now have me a precious guardian angel. My life is completely different but I’m very adamant about trying again for us all. I will one day have my rainbow baby!  Baby Z will alway be in my heart forever!!!!!!!!!! 

Love always