Doesn’t know or doesn’t care

I feel like my boyfriend doesn’t actually understand how bad my depression and anxiety is. I face daily periods of suicidal thoughts or panic attack episodes, and the few times I come to him he kinda brushes it off. At first he will say “I’m sorry” them change the subject, or he full on ignores me.

My “favorite” is when I hit a bad spot and opened up that I was feeling very alone and abandoned and how I felt I wasn’t really needed by any one

you know what he did?

Started sexting.

He only cares if it’s convenient and it breaks my heart. I no longer talk to him about how I’m feeling and, while I love him, I’m just so unhappy.