I did this during sex 😞

My fiancé has started getting into the choking and stuff during sex.

I’m totally fine with it but today I lost my cool.

He was taking control and I had to move my hands while he mostly throat fucked me and after the third time he was like only one more time and I said okay and he was like “are you crying” and I was like no and kept going. Then he said okay now one more time and then he sat back and was like holy shit you are crying then I started bawling DURING SEX. And he pulled me up to him and held me. I don’t know why but having someone do that freaked me out I don’t know if it’s just a soft spot for me or it’s from my past abusive relationships, I don’t know but it made me bawl my eyes out.

Him having his hand on the back of my head in total control over and over again. I would of thought I’d handle it a lot better but I didn’t 😞 I told him I’ll work on it but he told me it’s totally fine. He’s never been the type to do that.

I just got to work on it. I kept wiping my tears away and trying again. And he’d check up on me but I felt bad. I’m trying to be all sexy and handle anything but I break at deep throating a dick 🤦‍♀️

But the sex after wards was amazing so I made up for it 🙃😂